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Looking for Hag – A familiar tale. And so it happens that I am here, I am alive. Listeners – what are your thoughts? – NAG Radio for Feb 21 2020 –

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The Now and Again Radio

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Nag Radio – an every Now And Again, show with the latest, dumbest, awkwardest, most absurdest but also a fair bit of the every day tedium of This House of Imp. In other words: business as usual.

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House of Imp 28 Leeches, kids, and other parasites

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What’s the difference between parasites and adult children living at home?

Well, sometimes none that I can see.

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There are times when and episode is begging me to be recorded, then screaming at me to not be heard.
This is one of those.

There’s too much truth here, and I’m throwing people under the bus. That is not like me. so it was hard to decide. In the end I did a few small revisions and added both my reservations and my stubborn need to say what I need to say. the truth, but only part of it, with a few mean jokes along the way. Those were Imp’s idea though. Honest! 😀

Kids moving back home indefinitely or simply never bothering to grow up to move out in the first place. That is what I’m talking about here. don’t get me wrong; helping out ones children is a good thing. It’s natural, it’s the right thing to do. It’s when the power dynamic shifts and the “temporary” becomes “indefinitely” and unreasonable becomes normal and the trap has closed that is the real issue. It’s far too common and creates so many problems. It’s easy to immediately use the word “millennial” — The entitled generation. I say it’s easy but I don’t necessarily agree with it. Generalizing is always dangerous and I try hard not to do that. But the sad truth is that it’s the horrible examples that gets showcased. It’s not fair because I know it’s still a small fraction of children in their twenties and early thirties who appear to be just like described; entitled freeloading young adults thinking the world owes them something, kids taking no responsibility for their own behaviour, individuals who tend to use guilt to blame their parents into giving them what they want so they don’t have to work for it.

It’s not all children. and to be fair, not all parents are saints. Too many kids lack support of any kind from their parents. Sometimes shit happens to kids and it has nothing to do with their parents. But I’m not talking about any of that today. It’s a completely different episode, with another personal story. I can only handle so much honesty in one go. 😀

So that is that. disclaimers and reservations complete. and it is funny. If you feel targeted and offended on behalf of yourself or someone you know, keep in mind that this is my truth. And it was all Imp’s idea anyways.

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House of Imp 11 – Time… What a relentless bitch.

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A network of complications

I have the time. Now what?

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There comes a day. Chances are it will be the day I forget to remember what I remembered to forget… to put my pants on in the morning. Yes, you can tell I’ve given this much thought can you not?

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Time.

Jenny K Brennan Jan 10 2014

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House of Imp 10 – Calm – stop chasing that tail and just sit a while.

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A network of complications

Calm. Mental hide and seek.

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Finding the tools for something like inner peace and simple calm can be tricky. It may feel difficult. Sometimes, all but impossible. But once in a while…

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Calm.

Nothing makes you calm quite like an hour or so of real hard work, like actual physical labour.
“You can chip away the ice and snow infront of the front door.”, He says and I say, “Okay.”.

And that’s what I did. It was building up and building up so; Icepick and shovel and just at it. and now I feel great.

Calm. I guess the story of the moral, the moral of the story is I should do more of that stuff. I should do stuff, which I know. Naturally I should cause I do like it. I like being busy, I like moving my body, working it and so I did.

Calm is what I got out of it.

However, there’s only so much gratitude to go around as far as ice and snow goes. Truly.
The fields may not be good for walking today but we’ll give it a try. Last night the dog made a nosedive; he was running like normal – drumdidrumdidrum – across the crust and all of a sudden: Stop! Both front legs down under the crust into the soft snow under and he’s like: “What the hell?” It was funny.

But anyways, today, eh, we’ll see. I’m hoping for another long walk today.

Speaking of calm.

I am finding it easier and easier to reach that calm state now and then and I can create it myself now. I have the tools to do it. I’m training my mind to behave; to look at things differently. One of those tools is
Hypnosisdownloads.com where Mark Tyrrell and roger Elliott… have… great stuff. Self hypnosis. It works. It’s very calming.

Yoga. Is great; speaking of that physical. Walking is excellent. Exercise diminishes anxiety. And that’s the circle that’s so hard to break sometimes.

You’re anxious and you don’t want to do anything and you sit on the couch or go to sleep or do nothing. But all that needs to be done is to get moving, doing something. Moving, walking, exercising. Just do it. And that’s a fucking hard thing to do; to just do it.

But I’m saying: It works. And I’m getting there. I’m breaking that circle. I still have my anxieties and the thing is that problems like that, they never go away. You don’t get rid of it. You learn to deal with it. You learn to live with it. And once in a while. It feels really good. You just have to remember that… that once in a while it feels really good and you have to remember that feeling for the times that you don’t. And remember that you can always get back there.

Calm.

Jenny K Brennan Dec 28 2013

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07 – Doubts – Any fucked up reason will do. It’s vicious.

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Doubts. So what the hell is this shit for anyways?

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Damn if i really know.

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Doubts

They creep and they circle and they patrol.
they well up like a sour knot or a hundred insects biting, up through the stomach through the bodytenses everything up.
It circles.
Sometimes it’s so slow. And so sinister that you don’t even know.
And not knowing. How do you know what it’s about. You don’t.

I don’t.
You have to dive deep to find any rational reasons for that feeling.
That uneasiness, that anxiety but for the most part it’s not worth it.
It has to be stopped. You have to stop obsessing. Stop the thoughts in their tracks and just stop.
There are ways to do that. To relax. People have tricks. To get out of it. And I have mine.

But they’re always lurking. Always there.

But what is this for then?

Every time I talk for a few minutes I end up with a feeling of release. A liberating freedom of mind.
I feel relaxed, I feel better. Because what I say; It clears something up.
And that is why I do this.
This mini series of monologues about… what
Well, me I guess. I talk to myself, with myself, about how I feel.
Because I can’t talk to many other people about it.
So. It does help. Believe it or not; it does help.?
And that’s why I’m doing this.
And maybe, maybe someone will hear it and recognize themselves and feel better.

Jenny K Brennan Dec 22 2013

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House of Imp06 – Friends – Dealing with people. Why is it so hard?

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A network of complications

Friends

– These words falter and fade into confusion as anxiety nags at and shreds all that I think I know. Third part, more talking, more thoughts recorded. .

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Friends, family, aquaintances. Just people.
How do you deal with it, them, with all of that.

When everything in your mind surrounds what I’ve talked about before; Imagination and control.
The more I think about it, the more I feel the problem.

Not always, but often enough.
To make me distant and hard to reach.
Unable to reach – myself.
It’s control. Over the imagination. Of what’s going on around me.
What do they think? What did they say? What should I say, what should I do?
What can I do, where can i go to understand what’s wrong.
It’s not them. But what’s what?
Anxiety. Is hard to deal with.
Anxiety is imagination gone wild. Gone astray. Gone sour.
I am working on it and it is working.
I can deal with little things.
But I can’t deal with these things.
These big things that

That hurt other people.

But I have no power over them.
I don’t know what they see when they see me and that I can’t deal with.
Because I have to open my eyes myself to see. I have to let go of the control.

The control that I somewhere think I have a right to.
But I don’t. Because it’s not all about me.

It’s not even remotely close to being all about me.
What I should say is:
Fuck the imagination, it’s not real.
I should say fuck the control cause it can’t be done.
I should.
I know.
I should.
And I will.
I will.

Jenny K Brennan – Dec 20 2013